My name is La'Ren and I'm an addict.






I have an addiction.

These are written accounts

of my experiences with the paraphernalia.

Love; Lust; Limerence and Sex are my drugs.

My addiction is so intense that I don't look for the fix.

I look for the scores and overindulge in them

till they don't get me high no more. 


Men are no more than razors; needles;

spoons; lighters and torniquets.

To help the addict get a mind dulling hit.

They are my choices; my preferences and

my acquired taste.

I choose to love them all; but that can stop

and any of them can be replaced.


Love is the best drug; in its pure form

its feels like the most exhilarating delirium.

Being intoxicated by scent; sight; touch; sound.

Being inebriated beyond belief yet wanting more.

Takes me from nun to nymph;

from nymph to mania. 

Love is my favorite drug.


I'm an addict so ultimately

I just need to get high.

When I do lust will get me by.

Lust is a rush;

you can take hit after hit 

and never get enough.

Like you have to pinch your nose

and tilt back your head to hurry the high.

Don't ever look down;

you may fall over the edge and quick.

Lust lays you down.

Two hands become 1000 fingertips.

A yearning awakens; a beast that's insatiable 

but lust isn't my preference.

When love ain't around it'll get me by.

I'll leave lust for love its a purer high.


Limerence feels like love but its a whammy.

Limerence is always accidental.

The place you land trying to avoid sobriety.

The high is some what scattered;

like chaotic staccato articulations in jazz. 

You beg for either silence or sound to be consistent.  

Spiraling down and up; spinning out of control.

It tricks you into feeling sober

you come crashing down after.

In the mere moment  high is leveled it feels so good;

soon as you hit euphoria that spiraling crash feels

like it would drag you to hell if it could.

Limerence gets you only when you 

truly need to get sober and rehabilitate.

Addicts like me no place facilitates.


Then there's sex.

The drug won't get you too high

mostly it just compliments.

Makes love feel heaven sent. 

For lust; sex is like that 

munchie fix.

Sex makes limerence into a bad acid trip.


Bad sex does nothing.

Average sex does a bit.

Good sex makes you chase more highs, and a longer fix.

Amazing sex will have you getting high for the hell of it.


My name is La'Ren and I'm an addict. 




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